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Just bought Panasonic FX10 at SLS. It's cheap but wonder if it's any good.. actually it's more of an impulse buy.. will explore further and update. But i'm so happy that i actually own a digital camera liaoz.. can shoot as many photos as i want liao.. =)



Yeah.. 1 wish strike off!

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Although you are, deep down, a very caring person, you are very particular in the choice of friends and indeed very demanding at times. You can be most quarrelsome and controversial and it is because of this argumentative trait you can at times explode into open conflict - conflict with even those you may care for and love. It is because of this inherent argumentative streak in you that may have resulted in broken hopes and dreams.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

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How very accurate! Taken from wint3rz's blog.. interesting test..

Colorgenic

After so much self-convincing.. i still went back to him. I guess i'm really too dependent on him. I can't let go of our memories and i kept thinking of the things he did for me. Yet, i can't remember how much he had hurt me. It always when he's gone, then i start to think how well he's treated me. And when we are together again, i will think of this relationship is going nowhere. For the past few weeks when we are apart, I kept dreaming of him and even had nightmares involving him... i guess i think too much...

And now i wonder, is our relationship going somewhere or am i just wasting my time??

All i can say is i'm too blinded by love to think clearly now.

As my title says, my monitor is getting blurrer and for a moment, i thought i need to get a new specs and contacts..

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Yesterday went to color and trim my hair... plan is to color it red but turned out to be purplish red instead.. And the color is not that obvious also. Probably i should consider another salon to color liao though it is cheap at this salon. And maybe that is why the effect of the color is also compromised.. =(

My hair getting shorter.. hoping to crop it short next time. I'm not supposed to wash my hair till Monday night. Hopefully my hair doesn't itch too much.. it's getting itchy liao..

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Damn.. after more than one and half months working out in the gym and going to classes, my weight remains stagnant.. and the reason? Is input more than output. I must try to go at least 4 times a week!

Now weekends so free.. i'm thinking of joining some activities in the CC.. but currently looking through the PA webby, there doesn't seems to have any suitable courses or classes in my neighbourhood CC..

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Work again.. I hate to work but without work, i will be so bored.. especially when i want to prevent myself from wandering thoughts.. The person gave me the work last Friday, and my boss is on leave for 3 days from Monday and they need it by this Friday! I need to consult my boss on some issues before proceeding. How am i going to produce the work? ANd without any work produced, i will cause the business to fail.. and zero sales produced.. oh i realised i'm such a significant figure in my company till now..

Ordered these from Old Navy





Online sprees always leave me feeling satisfied. Or maybe it's shopping. Or rather i would said that spending $ makes me feeling better..

Celebrated WK's bd @ Bobby's last sat...





Didn't know that someone is so stressed when alone with me ha... said i'm so quiet & reserved.. actually i'm stressed when i'm with her as well.. perhaps when people's frequency is different, it's difficult to click.. even though it's said that Geminians & Librans are supposed to get along well..

Anyway may all our friendship blossoms.. after all we may get to meet only one another in this life.. Cheerz to all the friendshipz in the world..

Finally upload my HK photos.. take a look at the panel on the right if you want to take a look @ the photos.. =)

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Right now, i'm not interested in finding the right guy.. i wanna give up, give up everything. I only wan to earn money because with it, i can shop all i wan. Call me crazy. I don't wan to be crying late at nights, i don't wan to worry for my other half, i don't wan to be unhappy anymore.

Now during weekends, i'm so bored. I rented some movies and spent my weekends watching them. Other than that, i surf net whole day long.. feel that i'm wasting my life away...

Bought this wristlet from Coach.



Last Sat, met up with my uni-mates for WK's bd celebration. Coincidentally, he has the same bd as him. Makes me think of him again.. Anyway we went to Bobbys at Chijmes for a good dinner.. i had Signature Baby Pork Ribs.. it was succulent and juicy.. and i chose french fries and baked potato as my sides.. yums..

Not sure whether it was because of the above food that is too heaty, i got sore throat, headache and fever for the past few days. The funny thing is that in the daytime, my fever subsided. But when evening come, the fever will haunt me again.. i think my condition is weird.. i just hope i will be good and well as i haven't been going to PF for the past week.. wastage of $. Damn.

By the way we are not on talking terms now..

Just bought Lacoste 'Touch of Pink' at HFC. Costs only $33.95 for 30ml bottle. Believe it or not.. this is my first bottle of fragrance.. lolz.. and i love the smell, light and powdery, good for everyday use.

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Went for dinner at the stretch of eateries opposite Beauty World Centre last night with Mum. We finally chose Cafe 18, it is a HK cafe. I ordered the Cafe 18 Pork Chop Baked Rice while she ordered Pork Chop noodles. Mine doesn't taste that fantastic especially the pork chop. The meat is tough.. pls spare my poor teeth.. We had also wanton soup.. Taste not bad.. Would go back again to try other stuff..

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After some thoughts, i've finally decided that this is the best way out. I don't want to be hurt and i don't want to hurt anyone. Since both are feeling so terrible, why not each take few steps back? Actually, many are asking me when we are getting married, having been together for many years. However, i often smile it off. In actual fact, i don't have the feeling that he will be life-long partner at all. Promises are always broken. It's not i don't understand him. It's just that i'm disappointed time and again. If you can't fulfil your promise, don't ever promise in the first place. That's what i always tell him. But what happen in the end? History repeats itself. Call me selfish. I don't like to be disappointed and unhappy. Only one thing, i am sorry to him though, as i'm leaving him to celebrate his birthday alone on Mon. But i believe he will be fine, as he has his family and friends around. This time, i've really hurt him a lot, especially his pride so i think he hates me a lot now. I'm thinking of what to do with the present i bought for him? Perhaps i will discard it..

As for me, i hope not to ever be in love again as i've been hurt enough. I think being single is so much happier. I am contemplating to change my mobile number as i want to break off all contacts with him. Because if he comes to look for me again (which i doubt so anyway), i may be soft-hearted again...

Ended everything with a full stop. Drained of energy to carry on. No more soft-hearted.. no more..